I dont know what my problem is.

I think maybe my depression may be sneaking back in a bit or maybe it is just the exhaustion I discussed in my previous posts. I am just flat tired and uninterested in all this crap. School is super boring right now and I am just having the hardest time trying to stay awake and turn stuff in on time. Work is as boring as ever even though I am training for a new position which would atleast keep me busy instead of sitting here having nothing to do. Cheerleading is driving me crazy! And last but not least DH and I are in kindof a blah spot right now, which I think has more to do with the fact that I am going crazy and have been super bitchy here lately.

Anyway please be patient with me while I work through my funk and I am hoping I will do it quickly.

Cracks in the Facade!

Ok so I sometimes overwhelm myself with responsibilities. OK FINE I admit it I am almost always overwhelming myself with responsibilities. It is just down right ridiculous. You would think I would learn but NOPE I always think someone else will show up and help me out a bit but it rarely happens. When it does happen it is usually one person showing up when I need 3 people to show up.

Anyway due to me not getting some of the items I have to have for a project the project is now delayed and wont be ready in time for the first event. Crack #1. To top that off the people who promised me uniforms for Youth Cheer fell through and I have to make something else work. Crack #2. Last but not least I was so overwhelmed I decided not to do something that is normally done every year. Crack #3.

Now I am playing clean up and have to admit I am just downright tired. I really hate when I don't pull things off smoothly.

Worse than that I am behind in my school work because of Cheer leading. Seriously people I can not do it all!

You are getting very sleepy.......

I ran out of my insomnia medicine recently and for about 2 weeks I have been trying to survive without it. It is not working for me. I am going to sleep late and trying to wake up early but I am failing miserably.

So far I have managed to not let if affect my job too much but the rest of my life is a crazy ladies nightmare. I have no energy to cook, clean, study, or even take care of myself. God I hope the Doctor calls in my refills soon or I may have to go elsewhere. I just emailed her yesterday to request it simply because I kept forgetting to do it everyday. Does that tell you how tired I am.

Anyway off to work. You guys have a good day!

Life has been keeping me super busy!

We just started a new season of Youth Cheerleading and an outstanding turnout has us working with 83 cheerleaders which is not only amazing but a little overwhelming. I have to make sure the high school girls are there to teach the youth, create teams, assign team moms, put out a schedule, schedule an end of season competition, get music for them to compete with, order uniforms, order bows, and last but not least make sure I have money for all that.

Just because I get bored in the random seconds where I am not doing cheerleading I am still going to college full time and working full time so life is keeping me hopping.

I made it out alive!

Crazy lady resigned without much ado which was wonderful.

Everyone was in agreement on the reasoning behind having her leave but I am not so sure they were in agreement over moving her to another lower position with a lot less responsibility. She is still not acting normal though, she kept cutting us off and trying to run things. We had to tell her several times to stop doing stuff that we had already taken care of.

Long story short she is still a pain in my ass but atleast I will have to deal with her a lot less.

Today I am a nervous wreck!

I am doing my best to hold it together and not let it get to me but I am failing miserably. Tonight I get to deal with the crazy lady who thinks all the Cheer Boosters are out to get her.

I have been dreading this since Saturday when crazy lady requested the Executive Meeting. I know exactly what is going to happen and I have done everything I can to prevent it. Hopefully when she sees a room full of peers and coaches she will tone down her crazy a bit. I almost hope she doesn't though so they can see what I am dealing with.

One way or another she is going! I can not deal with her anymore and I will not have her with access to the bank account. She is just too unpredictable and unstable.

Everyone say a prayer and help me make it through this without issues!

Today is the day I may officially lose my mind!

Yes I know it has been a bit since I made it on here to talk and I am pretty sure you all would love to know why but honestly I just don't have the energy. I will just give you a short list of the reasons why I am at home on a Tuesday morning blogging when I should be at work.

Crazy BiPolar Vice President of the Booster Club (diagnosed by a medical professional)
Coaching staff with no clue (SERIOUSLY NO CLUE)
Fundraisers- 9 in two months (I think I was drunk when I booked that shit)
Stupidly signing up to be President of the Booster Club (I know I was drunk when I did that)
Teaching a 16 year old girl to drive (Making me want to become a real drunk)
Migraines (Probably a hangover due to all of the above)
Meetings (At this point those don't even register anymore)
Oh yeah and a college class I am behind in (Not even sure of the name of it but I really pray the teacher takes mercy on my soul)

Trust me ladies no matter how good you are there is no way you are wonder woman! Now I am just sitting here praying my boss doesn't give me an official counseling statement when I arrive at work. Cause you know that would just make all of the above so much better.

I want to cry!